Well, it's been a while... Life's been quite hectic, what with the move, the start of term and work, not to mention other neverending family thingies that make me want to run away as far as possible... To a place where nothing reaches me and I can concentrate on being me and getting to know exactly what I want from life. Which is not as obvious as it may seem.

There's too much to write and too little I actually want to share... So I guess I'll leave it like this. I've recently begun to appreciate the value of keeping some things to yourself instead of blurting them all out.

Life is about secrets.

First and foremost - my holidays are NOT going according to the plan - meaning that not only did I go on a short trip to Brenna in Polish Beskidy with a couple of my friends (which was more of a spur of the moment decision), but I have also been completely ignoring my Japanese correspondence course and haven't learned a thing. For the first two weeks I did absolutely nothing and for the next two I've been in Brenna and then in Dąbrowa Górnicza renovating our new flat. And there's A LOT to renovate.

Saw "My Girl", the Korean hit drama of 2006..... It was nice, though a bit too much like Delightful Girl (and the producers knew it to, if the last five minutes of the final episode are any indication xD). Other than that I read the Twilight saga and though I know the book's complete crap in many aspects, I still loved it xD

In an hour I'm going camping to Slovakia for nine days. I MIGHT go for a few days to Ukraine after that, but that's still undecided. I mean, I took my passport and some extra money, but it still hangs on the weather, my strenght after nine days of hiking and who will I be going with, of course :P The weather might be the trickiest part - there are floods in the south of Poland, but I'm not sure about the situation in Slovakia or Ukraine...

Well, I'm going :P Be back in two weeks or so :P

Validations: 9/9
Exams: 3/3

Yep, today I got the results from Friday's test from linguistics and I'm officially starting my holidays :) Tomorrow right_now_1 and I are starting our language learning session (he'll be learning French and I Japanese xD), so you can expect some rants about Japanese grammar :P Also, I'm planning to write a large batch of my novel during these holidays... What I've got so far is not really impressing: only 11 000 words as of today, but I'll do my best to change it :P Ganbarimasu! xD

I went to the Rialto cinema/theatre on Friday to see two of Kim Ki Duk's movies... "Spring, Summer, Autumn, Winter... and Spring" was.... weird :P Lots of awkward sex scenes (I mean, really awkward xD Why do guys always show/write about sex in such a dry, matter of fact, animalistic sort of way? The sex in Haruki Murakami's books, as well as in Michel Houellebecq's novels is always bordering on turpism. Then again, I've recently read a short story of Manuela Gretkowska, one of Poland's well-known contemporary novelists, and she described an intercourse in such a flowery way that it made me shake my head. I guess there isn't really a good way to write about sex, is there?), beautiful sceneries, sort of trademark covering of the face (in "Time" the face thing is kind of more important though xD), and male screeching in Korean in the Atumn part :P. I love the concept of the stone, though. How you carry it through out your entire life, climbing the mountain.. the stone wants to keep you from going on, but if your will to live is strong enough you can carry the stone no matter how far is your destination and how difficult the journey. I was really touched :3

The second movie was "3 Iron". It was AWESOME xD I mean, we're sitting in the cinema, watching the beginning, and I ask Greguar: "Hey, isn't that the guy from Delightful Girl Choon-Hyang?" And it was xD Normally I can't really remember the Korean actors and actresses (their names are way too confusing), but after seeing "3 Iron" I'm definitely going to remember his name xD About the film though: very powerful, had me strapped to the seat :P The two main characters don't saying anything through the entire movie, but you can see how their relationship progresses without any problems. I was only a bit bugged about the golf thing, I mean wtf? Totally absurd xD That woman in the car was weird. Why was she there? To show what, exactly? That Tae-suk's unhealthy obsession with golf could have some dire consequences? Also the ending was... huh. Well, it was great and all, but I don't really get the moving like a shadow thing XD Completely random. But still, I bought the DVD in Empik, should be able to go get it in two days maximum xD

And the last rant for today: after seeing "3 Iron" I was on Jae Hee high, so decided to do something mind-numbing again and waste away my weekend on watching another drama.  Since the concept  of "Three Dads One Mom" was too stupid even for me, I settled for "Witch Yoo-Hee". It was okay, I guess... Not really gripping, but the love relationships were not as predictable as they always are xD The witch plot was stupid and overdone, the actress stiff as a board, and the main evil character the one Korean actor I really can't stand xD I mean, he has no facial expression, no chemistry with other people, he's like a walking stick cartoon character... Even his sort of redemption was stupid xD I really liked both Moo-Ryong and Johnny, though. Didn't know for whom to root at some point, even though it was obvious that Johnny wouldn't get the girl... Eh, poor him. I really hearted him, he was so sweet :P One thing that bothers me: why the hell does Jae Hee play stupidly named characters? Here it was Moo-Ryong, and in "DG Choon-Hyang" it was Mong-Ryong... I mean, come on.

That's it for today xD Don't kill me for the overdose of stupidity - I need some place to rant about those things as well xD

Validations: 8/9
Exams: 3/3

It's odd how sometimes you can't just be happy for yourself :P I got the highest grade from my French exam, yet I feel like a dumb idiot who doesn't deserve it. I saw the written part, and it was covered in corrections, and I'm sure that my speaking was horrible, I kept trying to say things I couldn't because I don't know the necessary vocabulary or grammar and kept making stupid mistakes. I was sure I'd get a 3 or a 3+ and I got a 4+ O_o Combined with the 5 from writing and grammar it gave me a 5.  I really don't know what to think about it XD Maybe it's my unhealthy ambition, or something... or a weird perspective: I'm used to being able to express myself quite well in English, so when I have problems with saying the most basic things in French I am easily frustrated. But from a more objective standpoint the level of French in our group is supposed to be DELF 2, so they can't really expect us to spontaneously form long, grammatically correct speeches full of difficult vocabulary.

Changing the topic: I saw the last two episodes of Last Friends, the final without subs, unfortunately, and even though I don't exactly understand some things, I think it's one of the greatest dramas I've ever seen. Seriously. I'm not going to go into the psychology yet, I'll probably do that after I have seen the last episode with subtitles... But I really, really, REALLY love the concept of "tomodachi janai, koibito janai" xD It completely exceeded my expectations xD <3 <3 <3

Validations: 8/9
Exams: 2/3

I got the job! xD I went to Katowice this morning and officially signed the contract, I'm starting on the first of October. I'm a bit freaked out (understatement of the week xD), but I think it won't be that bad... Or at least I hope so :P

The decision about the mortgage was positive, although there were some conditions, for which we'll have to wait for about a month and we're not sure whether the people selling their flat to us will want to wait that long.... It's all so messed up, I'm getting really fed up with it.
I went to my Dad's grave today... and I found a bloody advertisement leaflet under one of the candles. They are f*cking everywhere, even on cementaries -.-

They called me! I'm going on another interview on Thursday xD Incroyable XD Arienai xD

Validations: 6/9
Exams: 2/3

I passed the history and culture exam, though I thought I would get a higher grade... but oh well :P I never did get more than 3+ on all the history tests in high school, so a 4 at university is still good :) But it's kind of sad - I like history very much, when asked about something I can spin a fantasy tale about it, connecting it to lots of insignificant details, but when it comes to testing my knowledge, I always score a lot less than I thought I would. Eh, life :P

I have the exam from French tomorrow - can't say I'm really confident about it, but there isn't much I can do about it now... Should have learned more when there was time xD Wouldn't have to cram so much today xD

About my interview - if they want to work with me they will get in touch in the next two weeks, but I seriously doubt they will. I didn't do that well, besides I'm a nineteen year old university student with absolutely no experience xD Fat chance xD

And lastly - about Kurosagi the movie. Don't watch it, it's awful ;_; Stupid Shakespeare references, running around with katanas (where the hell did they come from, damnit?!), Yamapi looking as if he had just swallowed something disgusting, angsty scenes in a fake graveyard (wtf? why was Katsuragi in the damn tomb?! and why did Kurosaki stand above him with the katana?) and in the rain with poor Kurosaki crying his poor heart out (so stoopid, btw), absolutely no plotline for Tsurara (I mean, she was in five scenes or so, didn't say much, just stared sadly and smiled once, don't get what was so important about her to have the second place in the credits... I would have given the place to the ugly guy who played Katsuragi... but oh well, it's Horikita Maki. But Yamaki fans didn't get much to feed on either... xD). The saddest thing was that the angst was so oppressive that all the humoristic parts of the show were completely destroyed. Though I did kind of like the scene when Kurosaki had to escape from the elevator. And Kurosaki as Jack Sparrow was totally random xD

End of rant :P And yes, I'm a geek.

Validations: 5/9
Exams: 1/3

The teacher sent the exam results via e-mail and guess what?xD I passed! With the highest grade, too! XD Gu-rei-to! xD

I watched "9 ends 2 outs" all day yesterday - treating it as a complete break from studying - and I must say that I really liked this one. Of course, the pace was sometimes really stretched and some plotlines were quite boring (for example I couldn't see any chemistry between Nan-Hee and Jung Joo, but they stayed together for nine episodes out of sixteen O.o) but the slow pace brought in return an opportunity for the characters to naturally develop. I also really liked the relationship between Nan Hee and Hyung Tae - their friendship was great, their acting was awesome and the way they talked to each other, without any inhibitions... oh, I wish I had a friend like that too! xD

The newest episode of "Last Friends" came out today and I was like, WHOA, it was so intense. Poor, poor Takeru~! ;_; And his evil onee-chan found him... And I really do hope that Ruka's not the fore-shadowed death from the first episode... All in all, I'm loving this series more and more with each new dose :P It's a shame that there are only two episodes left... I recommend this to anyone :D Can't really understand why they are promoting "Zettai Kareshi" and "Gokusen 3" instead of this pearl.

And to end today's entry...  I got a call from the language school where I had sent my CV... I'm going for a meeting on Thursday :) I'm both excited and scared :P It's my first job meeting ever xD Wish me luck!

Validations: 4/9
Exams: 0/3 (but one written, I'll know if I passed at the end of the week)

I had a monster of an English literature exam today :P Of course out of 40 or so questions the four I had to write about were ones of those I didn't particularly like - but oh, well, that's life. But it proved something to me - I still have a lot of work to do before I can say that I'm really good. Recently I had classes with a really nice teacher and they were a pleasure to attend and I was the only person in the class that had any interest in what we were doing, so it seemed that I might have some talent in this area... But in truth I lack a whole damn lot. I have problems with interpretation - I never see the important things and notice idiotic details instead, and that never helps when you are writing an analysis that will be graded :P

But in order to go into publishing I need to reform my mind and put much more work in what I'm doing. And thought. A lot of thinking, analysing and learning till I am brain-dead XD

But right now I have some free time. Last night I made some minimal progress on my novel, "Hedatari", but since I used a completely different style of narration I had to re-write everything from scratch - so in fact I took several steps back instead of forward. But I feel that this way I will be able to move the action in a smoother and quicker way than before. I always forget about economizing my texts - I tend to describe all the isignificant, boring details, infinitely stretch the conversations for no apparent reason and lose the important things in the meantime. Thanks to some advice of madwriter I tried a different approach and for now it's going quite well :)

Apart from a novel to write there are a lot of books waiting to be read, and I'm starting to seriously think about watching "9 ends 2 outs", all because of Jenny's awesome video... See for yourself, it's seduisante x

I just got back from a b-day party of one of my friends from high-school and I'm really pissed. And not in the alcoholic sense, too -.- My friend's boyfriend who lives in the city I'm going to move to started to make fun of that particular suburb, saying really unpleasant things about the place and its inhabitants and it really made me angry. Why am I so easily influenced? Why do I lose my temper over what some irrelevant person says? And he's one of those types. One of those talkative, "cool" people who think they are so great and don't care about anybody and anybody's feelings while in fact there is nothing special about them. Heck, he got kicked out of university 'cause he didn't pass an exam and he's so proud of the fantasy/computer games community he has created on the Internet. What's so special about him? Bloody bastard.

My ex was just like that. He told me once that he doesn't walk a girl home after a date if he doesn't feel like it. And he didn't walk me home, at least at first. But I was too blinded with the fact that I actually have a boyfriend that I didn't chuck him the first chance I got. And well, I talked to him recently and told him sketchily about my current family situation (which is dreary, I tell you) and I thought that he might sympathise, 'cause his was actually quite similar, but nuh-uh, he told me that life sux, yeah, but not for him, because he bought a new game and he's happy. I stopped the conversation.

Are there any nice guys out there who like me? 'Cause every time I like a guy he doesn't give a shit, so it seems that my future husband will have to like me first -.-